folks this ain't new

my new year resolution are  ( not really new- a bit old dah)


Top four best things for me :

30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures

1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex
4. Skinny Dipping
5. Making the Yellow Light
6. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story
7. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself
8. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment
9. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty
10. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex
11. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously
12. The Pull-Through Parking Spot
13. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep
14. People Watching
15. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer
16. A Familiar Smell
17. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works
18. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets
19. A Beautiful View
20. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends
21. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment
22. Having a Good Laugh
23. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout
24. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love
28. Playing in the Water
29. Making Someone Smile
30. Finishing What You Started

yourself

1 - When is your birthday?
      02 May 1989 

2 - Who do you want to be with right now?
     Just need someone to snuggle with 

3 - What is your dream car?
     Rexton 

4 - Do you like to talk on the phone?
     No 

5 - Do you cry easily ? 
     Yes , i guess 

6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?
     Songs from I

7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?
     my mom ;p

8 - What do you feel right now?
      very lonely 

9 - What chocolate is your favorite?
     fruit and nut 

10 -  Who is the first person in your contacts?
     Abdullah (UIA)

11. What is your favorite cartoon of all time?
      Madeline 

12. What's the stupidest thing you've ever done?
       walked at night around PJ about 6 km  with cousin wearing heels 
       and end up stayed a night at hotel 

13. Do you ride roller coasters?
      no and will never do 

14. What's your favorite number?
      high FIVE! yea,its 5 

15. what was your favorite subject in school?
     Science 

16. What kind of music are you into?
      classical english / baroque 

17. What are something that makes you really sad?
       when people ignore/ don't appreciate me 

18. Would you rather live in country or in the city? 
      country! a small cottage with river and trees 

19. If you could try out any job for a day, what would you like to try?
      newscaster! i would love to try this (my ambition tho)

20. Have you ever taken a personality test? (How did the results turn out?)
     YEAH I DID! several times
     the result is : my personality test result 

;)

OMG! im sleeeeeeeepppyyyyhhh

hopeless and alone

i feel extremely lonely -unloved and depressed now + feel like a complete crap.i am just not happy at all with myself and no one to talk to.

so i'm browsing the net- to find what should i do - esp from AkiraRobinson site, she shared ideas on what to do when you feel no one appreciate you and of course being alone and depressed like me now. so, let see if i can try few of 'em. 



1. CALL SOMEONE YOU LOVE
       - i don't have anyone to call now and nobody bother to call me as well 
       - this idea - rejected! 

2.  LEARN A DANCE FROM YOU TUBE
     - gosh! i don't have mood to danceeee at alll
     - rejected!

3. DANCE IN YOUR UNDERWEAR 
   - hurm
   - let see how 

4. GET OFF FACEBOOK 
  - approved 
  - gonna delete it soon 

5. FIND A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN VOLUNTEER 
  - pd? 
  - naaahh! 

6. CRY
 - done 
 - result : i feel tired and my eyes swollen and headache throughout the day 

7. START A GRATITUDE PRACTICE 
  - done 
  - quite good (sent text to one of my best friends - and she gave a positive reply ;)

8. CHECK OUT MEETUP.COM
  - booorinngg

9. IF YOU CANT BE WITH FRIENDS, WATCH FRIENDS
  - i don't have time to watch TV

10. READ
   -  greattt idea
   - i'm doing it most of the time
   - currently reading : how to start your own biz

11. WATCH THIS LOVELY VIDEO
    - i watched and get inspired by it
   -  vid : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs


12. START A BLOG 
    - yeah! i'm blogging now (i mean, i'm back) 
    - http://www.20sb.net/

13. CREATE A VISION BOARD 
    - this is my problem 
    - i don't have vision 
    - will find now and write those in next post 

14. MOVE
    - i'm moving now 
   - jumping up and down 
   - yeay 

15. BEFRIEND AN ANIMAL
   - em~ i'm not into it 
   - i can watch in national geographic i guess  

16. TAKE A NAP 
   - done
   - the result is ok 

17. DRIVE 
   - i own a car 
   - but don't feel like driving these days 
  
18. FIND A THERAPIST AND COUNSELOR
   - will find  one
   - if i can't manage it anymore 

19. TAKE YOURSELF OUT ON A DATE 
   - plan to watch movie alone
   - erm..might be in my  lappy only. ;P

20. OWN IT 
    - to own your loneliness and say it out loud
    - I FEEL LONELY  !!!!!!!!!!




    

that's it 

loV3

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore 

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

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after so long

my last post (two years back)

'_'

but now I'm back
within two years - i've graduated from IIUM
                         - bought a car :: long way to go for my dream car '(
                         - worked for almost two years
                         - resigned
                         - looking for a job
                         - i'm getting 'younger' and jobless ;p
                         - people say just go with the flow
                         - can't apply to me as i'm flow-less

to be continued

                       
                       

wedding dress

my dream wedding dress : (cewah!) tiba-tiba pulak dah... and i found this site : http://www.zawaj.com/weddingways_main.html
awesome if you wana know about Muslim Wedding Customs around the world

ni sopan and cute

i love vintage dress!

would you rather ...

WOULD YOU RATHER...?

1. have $20 to spend today OR $100 to spend next year ?
    emm...$100 to spend next year??nope!!would rather spend 2o today

2. eat a worm sandwich OR eat a snail sandwich ?
    can i say none of them...but in a critical situation i'll go for worm 

3. wear nothing but orange OR wear nothing but purple
     of course PURPLE

4. wash a cat OR wash a car?
    i don't like cat so -->cAr

5. have your hair cut by your mum OR have your hair cut by your friend?
    em~friend!! because my hair would turn into a bowl if it done by mum

6. drink nothing but milk for a week OR drink nothing but pineapple juice for a week?
     i love milk!!

7. lose your watch OR lose your diary ?
    i don't keep a diary but if to compare with watch...lose a diary is a bit scary too but im gonna go with lose  
    a diary.

8. sleep on a bed of crackers OR sleep on a bed of potato chips?
    i would love to sleep on potato chips =P

9. be a rabbit for a day OR be a cat for a day ?
    rabbit!! rabbit !! 

10. ride to work on tractor OR ride to work on elephant?
      elephant !! cuz its unique 

11. have three brothers OR have three sisters?
      i hate brothers! i want more sisters (so that i can share all my secrets with them)

12. eat corn flakes without milk OR eat toast without butter?
      of course the first one! cuz i cant have a tasteless toast 

13. learn to surf OR learn to ski
      maybe learn to ski 

14. wear  ball gown on the beach OR wear a swimsuit in the supermarket?
      the latter is crazier..ball gown on the beach sounds romantic 

15. have one big present OR have lots of small presents?
      a lots for sure! i love presents and surprises ! who hate that? 

25 May 2013

i bought a car

and i love my new mister

and love its number cuz when i add (7+0+4+3 = 5) and 5 is May 

and its white and a greatest birthday present ever !

and I'm thinking of upgrading it after five years.he he. 

reminiscing

Unexpectedly i found many cool pictures from my dslr memory card and wanted to paste it here :P

        Reminiscing my student's life.

bowling with my junior

when i was quite slim back then (i guesso) 

me and my juniors in-room sandals

my sister simple birthday celebration 

my awesome group and visit to this place

went out with my bureau 

my last room in UIA (Block D Hafsa 1.2)

my favorite donut (love all 6 flavors)

my first level of education was here (dah roboh dh :/ sedih) 

with my indonesian friends

my compartment 

likes and dislikes

LIKES :

1. the way you smell
2. how you can get me out of a bad mood (even you buat i bad mood)
3. the way you need me
4. because you haven't given up on me yet
5. that you always tell me i look cute/beautiful (walaupun tak lansung)
6. because of your nicknames for me
7. because you know when something is wrong
8. when you forgive me straight away even though i do something that makes you angry
9. and because you let me watch what i want
10. the way you cope with my stresses
11. when you hold my hand
12. being in the car with you
13.your text
14. because you love fish
15. because of many similar interests like mine but also opposite of me in many different ways
16. because of your shoulder (always there when i need it)
17. because you take care of me
18.the way you worry about me
19.when you ask about my family
20.and because you say "i love you"

DISLIKES:

1. smoking.and its time for you to quit smoking
2. and its sucks when you smell like cigarettes (sometimes)
3. i do not like it when i have to be the overall leader
4. i hate it when you never give me flowers since we have been together
5. i know you are not the romantic type
6.and because you doesn't call me very much
7.and I'm afraid that you're going to be stuck in your own world (seems like you
    scared to try something new)
8. i don't like it when you make me feel less than
9. and sometimes arrogant
10.and i don't like it when you don't tell me the things you want in life
11. and you out having fun and I'm locked down (i feel left out,forgotten about and
       sometimes jealous) (Or it has nothing to do with you)
12.maybe because you don't make plans in advance for two of us together
    (i guess because you're so busy with your family and work) (i know i shouldn't whine,
    it's not a good thing)
13.and i don't know what I'm doing.

macam doesn't make sense at all jer semua ni,because perangai orang semua berubah-ubah before and after marriage.so it depends la.and hope for the best.that's all.

wish upon a star #part two

My long-term goals/ A dream house :

i would love to cook at this vintage kitchen :)

another important thing to me ( for master bedroom)

 i wish i have this

or maybe this but of course with a sheer  canopy! (wajib)

contemporary-classic TV/Leisure room

a calm living room for get-together with family w/o TV distractions

my dream porch/ Veranda

bedroom for my daughters

 

guest bedroom

bedroom for my boys

a place for me to hide from the world (the attic/loteng) kalau ada loteng

So, this is my dream house, i would love to live in this kind of house (as it's surrounded by trees) and i want a simple house like this (not too big or to small) and decorate it depends on my budget and  also things that i wish for. Having little or no money doesn't mean you can't have a beautiful home

and oh! i wish that i can have a small piano area for my pleasure. I'm  longing for piano since i was a little kid (actually my dad promised to buy this for me) but now i have to buy this on my own :)

So, lastly..your background doesn't have to dictate what you do. It doesn't matter what other people think of you because you are free to make your own decisions and to set your own goals and don't let yourself to be put off or downgraded by others. You are what you think. Just go think big! :)

wish upon a star #part one

Things I Wish For or should i say My Long-term Goals:

a library for my  books (i can also save all my secrets here)

this unique fridge

a doll house 

  

or maybe a vintage doll-house like this 

best films

I've been watching a lot of movies lately (cartoon/anime) The latest is My Neighbor Totoro originally released in 1988 (saya pun belum lahir) , directed by Hayao Miyazaki is one of the Best Films of World Cinema. Tonari no Totoro (Japanese language) is a must watch!

This is the disc cover

This superbly animated children's tale is directed by Hayao Miyazaki, one of Japan's most beloved animators. The story follows Satsuke and Mei, two young girls who find that their new country home is in a mystical forest inhabited by a menagerie of mystical creatures called Totoros. They befriend O Totoro, the biggest and eldest Totoro, who is also the king of the forest. As their girls' mother lies sick in the hospital, O Totoro brings the sisters on a magical adventure but also helps them to understand the realities of life. Like most films released by Miyazaki's Studio Ghibli, this family-oriented feature has a powerful ecological theme. The English-language version of this film wasn't dubbed until many years later, explaining the presence of actors such as Dakota Fanning in the cast (who wasn't even born until 1994). ~ Jonathan E. Laxamana, Rovi

And i watched another Japanese film, same director, Spirited Away a.k.a Sen to Chihiro Kamikakushi. OMG this film make me lost in nowhere. I'm into this movie so much and it originally released on 2001. 

I downloaded it via Torrent

The film opens with ten-year-old Chihiro riding along during a family outing as her father races through remote country roads. When they come upon a blocked tunnel, her parents decide to have a look around -- even though Chihiro finds the place very creepy. When they pass through the tunnel, they discover an abandoned amusement park. As Chihiro's bad vibes continue, her parents discover an empty eatery that smells of fresh food. After her mother and father help themselves to some tasty purloined morsels, they turn into giant pigs. Chihiro understandably freaks out and flees. She learns that this very weird place, where all sorts of bizarre gods and monsters reside, is a holiday resort for the supernatural after their exhausting tour of duty in the human world. Soon after befriending a boy named Haku, Chihiro learns the rules of the land: one, she must work , as laziness of any kind is not tolerated; and two, she must take on the new moniker of Sen. If she forgets her real name, Haku tells her, then she will never be permitted to leave. ~ Jonathan Crow, Rovi

Next movie that i watched: Kerity La Maison des Contes. Its a French movie and was released on 2009 or Eleanor's Secret in English. It was unbearably awesomest cartoon movie ever that i've watched 

Kerity.He is cute.

A young boy learns about the power of the written word in this fantasy from French animator Dominique Monfery. When their offbeat Aunt Eleanor passes away, two children are willed gifts from her estate. Angelica is given an antique doll, while Nat receives the keys to his aunt's secret library, which contains rare first editions of some of the world's best known children's books. Nat has no interest in reading and hasn't bothered to learn how; he feels like he's been gypped, and lets his folkssell the collection to the mysterious Mr. Pickall in order to pay for repairs to their home. But Nat learns there's more to the library than he thought when suddenly the characters come to life and tell him that unless he can read a magical incantation printed in one of the books, the characters will vanish and their stories will be lost for all time. After an encounter with a devious witch, Nat is transported to the world of the fairy tale characters, and in cahoots with Alice from Wonderland and The White Rabbit, he looks for a way to rescue the books from Mr. Pickall and keep the stories alive. Kerity, la maison des contes (aka Nat e il segreto di Eleonora and Eleanor's Secret) was initially released in French, Italian and English-language versions; the English language print was an official selection in the Children's Program at the 2010 Traverse City Film Festival. ~ Mark Deming, Rovi

I have one more film to watch in my waiting list (it's a French movie): Le Magasin de Suicides or The Suicide Shop which is one of the eccentric movies i guess based on its review. I just need some free time and start to watch this. 

ain't it creepy?

Master filmmaker Leconte makes a startling and unforgettable departure from his previous work with this whimsical animated 3D musical about a family business offering certain special “end‐of‐life” services. Rather than succumbing to a purely mordant perspective, the movie switches course and mood, driven by the family’s perpetually happy child whom they can’t control. Based on the novel by Jean Teule and with the voices of Bernard Alane, Isabelle Space, Kacey Mottet Klein, Isabelle Giami,
Laurent Gendron.

And i have movies that i wish to download : 

1. Princess Mononoke (Hayao Miyazaki)

2. Howl's Moving Castle ( " )

3. Ponyo ( ") 

http://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/search/search.php?&type=author&fname=Hayao&lname=Miyazaki

Basically i love all Japanese films especially from Studio Ghibli. They are damn cute and i like the storyline so much and its totally different from Disney/Buena Vista and whatsoever. Thats all #MovieReview P1