folks this ain't new

my new year resolution are  ( not really new- a bit old dah)


Top four best things for me :

30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures

1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex
4. Skinny Dipping
5. Making the Yellow Light
6. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story
7. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself
8. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment
9. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty
10. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex
11. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously
12. The Pull-Through Parking Spot
13. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep
14. People Watching
15. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer
16. A Familiar Smell
17. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works
18. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets
19. A Beautiful View
20. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends
21. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment
22. Having a Good Laugh
23. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout
24. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love
28. Playing in the Water
29. Making Someone Smile
30. Finishing What You Started

yourself

1 - When is your birthday?
      02 May 1989 

2 - Who do you want to be with right now?
     Just need someone to snuggle with 

3 - What is your dream car?
     Rexton 

4 - Do you like to talk on the phone?
     No 

5 - Do you cry easily ? 
     Yes , i guess 

6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?
     Songs from I

7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?
     my mom ;p

8 - What do you feel right now?
      very lonely 

9 - What chocolate is your favorite?
     fruit and nut 

10 -  Who is the first person in your contacts?
     Abdullah (UIA)

11. What is your favorite cartoon of all time?
      Madeline 

12. What's the stupidest thing you've ever done?
       walked at night around PJ about 6 km  with cousin wearing heels 
       and end up stayed a night at hotel 

13. Do you ride roller coasters?
      no and will never do 

14. What's your favorite number?
      high FIVE! yea,its 5 

15. what was your favorite subject in school?
     Science 

16. What kind of music are you into?
      classical english / baroque 

17. What are something that makes you really sad?
       when people ignore/ don't appreciate me 

18. Would you rather live in country or in the city? 
      country! a small cottage with river and trees 

19. If you could try out any job for a day, what would you like to try?
      newscaster! i would love to try this (my ambition tho)

20. Have you ever taken a personality test? (How did the results turn out?)
     YEAH I DID! several times
     the result is : my personality test result 

;)

OMG! im sleeeeeeeepppyyyyhhh

hopeless and alone

i feel extremely lonely -unloved and depressed now + feel like a complete crap.i am just not happy at all with myself and no one to talk to.

so i'm browsing the net- to find what should i do - esp from AkiraRobinson site, she shared ideas on what to do when you feel no one appreciate you and of course being alone and depressed like me now. so, let see if i can try few of 'em. 



1. CALL SOMEONE YOU LOVE
       - i don't have anyone to call now and nobody bother to call me as well 
       - this idea - rejected! 

2.  LEARN A DANCE FROM YOU TUBE
     - gosh! i don't have mood to danceeee at alll
     - rejected!

3. DANCE IN YOUR UNDERWEAR 
   - hurm
   - let see how 

4. GET OFF FACEBOOK 
  - approved 
  - gonna delete it soon 

5. FIND A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN VOLUNTEER 
  - pd? 
  - naaahh! 

6. CRY
 - done 
 - result : i feel tired and my eyes swollen and headache throughout the day 

7. START A GRATITUDE PRACTICE 
  - done 
  - quite good (sent text to one of my best friends - and she gave a positive reply ;)

8. CHECK OUT MEETUP.COM
  - booorinngg

9. IF YOU CANT BE WITH FRIENDS, WATCH FRIENDS
  - i don't have time to watch TV

10. READ
   -  greattt idea
   - i'm doing it most of the time
   - currently reading : how to start your own biz

11. WATCH THIS LOVELY VIDEO
    - i watched and get inspired by it
   -  vid : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs


12. START A BLOG 
    - yeah! i'm blogging now (i mean, i'm back) 
    - http://www.20sb.net/

13. CREATE A VISION BOARD 
    - this is my problem 
    - i don't have vision 
    - will find now and write those in next post 

14. MOVE
    - i'm moving now 
   - jumping up and down 
   - yeay 

15. BEFRIEND AN ANIMAL
   - em~ i'm not into it 
   - i can watch in national geographic i guess  

16. TAKE A NAP 
   - done
   - the result is ok 

17. DRIVE 
   - i own a car 
   - but don't feel like driving these days 
  
18. FIND A THERAPIST AND COUNSELOR
   - will find  one
   - if i can't manage it anymore 

19. TAKE YOURSELF OUT ON A DATE 
   - plan to watch movie alone
   - erm..might be in my  lappy only. ;P

20. OWN IT 
    - to own your loneliness and say it out loud
    - I FEEL LONELY  !!!!!!!!!!




    

that's it 

loV3

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore 

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

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after so long

my last post (two years back)

'_'

but now I'm back
within two years - i've graduated from IIUM
                         - bought a car :: long way to go for my dream car '(
                         - worked for almost two years
                         - resigned
                         - looking for a job
                         - i'm getting 'younger' and jobless ;p
                         - people say just go with the flow
                         - can't apply to me as i'm flow-less

to be continued